My first exam wasn't too painfull, despite my mass fit of nerves that caused me to shake all friday morning(such a drama queen). The attempts at revision for my last one are failing pretty miserably, which is a bit rubbish as it's on Monday and I only started the revision today.
I managed to delete pretty much everyone off my MSN list the other day so it now comprises of about 4 people, though seeing as they're pretty much the only people I talk to online I don't think it's too much of loss.
It's a shame I couldn't make it down to Great Escape this weekend but exams do unfortunatly have to take priority, however it seems that next year I have no exams at all maybe I shall be able to go then.

You have just booked two tickets to see Lostprophets at Brighton Dome on 10/7/2006

Yay I get to see a great band in a small venue and go to the seaside, I'm meant to be seeing them at Brixton as well but the confirmation email has yet to arrive etc. It almost makes up for the fact that I am being forced to miss The Great Escape due to exams in a few weeks time.
I went to Brighton yesterday, it was nice; the sun was shining I actually managed to find a nice skirt to buy etc I am still without a clutch bag but I guess somethings never change.
Blah back to the revision before I go to work this afternoon.

Back with my homies.....
I signed the contract on my new house (well bungalow) today, I have to say the girl that was in the estate agents was really nice and helpfull, so much better than Mullberrys were. I'm quite looking forward to moving in as it is a rather nice place plus we get broadband included!
The train home made me realise how much I want to live in London, especially passing through Kensington in the May sunshine *sigh* i could pretend I was Wendy Darling that way.
I am loving the weather that's happening at the moment, it allows me to sit in the garden with a strawberry smoothie and a Ben Elton book and to be honest what more do I need?
I think stuff between me and Daniel is getting marginally better, after possibly the worst fight we've ever had last night we finally got some stuff sorted and things may be on the up.
I do love being home, in a house that doesn't smell of stale fags, sick and beer, that's clean and that I feel... well at home in.
As pathetic as it isI really want to see Fall Out Boy the day before my birthday, and would were it not for the fact that's it's in Brixton and as I'd be there on my own I don't really fancy it.

I wrote one and a half essays today, I am now dead. Being back at uni is a bit rubbish, mainly as my laptop broke so I've spent all day in the library and my neck kills from the car crash on the way down here. Board meeeintg last night was fun, well the pub after was good, nice to have a chat to everyone and get to know people etc. This year seems like a really good group, not too many cliques and generally good people. I am so glad the essays are over now :) Just one more for monday then two exams then HOME! though to be honest I am heardly here this term, back home thursday morning till Sunday then home on Tuesday till sunday etc it's all good. however I have nothing to do tomorrow, especially if my computer is on the blink, I might try a trip into staines if there is anything on at the cinema as I'm free till 3. I might do some calling of presenters to find out who need scover when, hopefully the studio will be open so I can save pennies and do it from there intead of my mobile.
Oh but GIAN was good, Sunday was far better than Saturday mainly I was only there from 5 so didn't have to spend all day in the dark and also on Saturday Thrice were the only band I was desperate to see. But Sunday We Are Scientists were fab as were TBS (and I am now very looking forward to seeing them). Lostprophets were great, new stuff sounds fit even if Ian does look like a dickhead even more than usual.

I have yet to update this over Easter as I have yet to do anything this break apart from go to work and spend days in bed clutching a hot water bottle to my stomach due to my lover IBS being about fuuun. So I am now fully stocked up on peppermint and fennel tea and apparently off the haul of Easter eggs I obtained yesterday. I'm hoping the break will get a bit better now but I'm not holding out much hope, mainly as I'm tired of trying to get hold of people to see them and them getting back to me either three days later or not at all, The Fratellies were at KoKo on Friday but as no one bothered to get back to me I was not able to find anyone to go with so spent the evening watching hustle as I'm not really wanting to hang out in Camden in the middle of the night on my own.
I had an invite to some school party on Saturday and to be honest am glad I decided/was forced to stay in, I was tempted to go, I'm not sure why as spending an evening in the company of people who two years ago were dull and arrogant and had my utmost dislike and who had undoubtedly not changed is hardly going to be jokes. One thing that is putting me in a good mood is Dan coming over on Tuesday night for a few days, I haven't seen him in about a week now and I do miss him, then I get to spend the weekend after next with him at GIAN which I'm really looking forward to! We almost booked tickets to go see lostprophets in Newport on the Thursday before hand but then I realised I was working till 8 so not much chance of getting down there in time.
I'm going to go and indulge in some Peep Show love
it's not in the ear is it?

Last night was absolutely fab, despite having to deal with petrol in the drains by spending an hour pouring water down the toilet and sinks. Becki came down so Zoe headed out with us and they joined me in Medicine at 10 when we eventually opened. Despite the 2 hour delay I still got to DJ with Al, we got a few people on the dance floor which was nice. Spent the rest of the evening dancing like a loon, continually accidentally bumping into Daniel who was there with Luke and generally having a fab evening. I have some stupid pictures but am too lazy to upload them yet. There was much 'next year is going to be the station's best' between me and various other board types, although I am going to be sad to say goodbye to some of this year's board as it has been a fab year. Oh and on thursday I got Head of Programming for next year :) which basically means i'm the one who decides on who gets a show next year, and Daniel might be music editor of the orbital too, fingers crossed.
I'm off to make myself a beast of a sausage sarnie for lunch before I go to my last lectures hurrah!

Yesterday was the Insanity elections and I got Head of Programming
Tonight Becki and hopefully Stephanie are coming down to Medicine and I'm DJing
Saturday morning I am going home
All in all an excellent few days

I like Sundays, waking up to a sunny day and spending the morning slowing coming to my senses, watching Peep Show and showering. Having Daniel come and help me on my show, then spending an hour playing pool badly in Medicine, coming back to mine to watch more Peep Show after quoting it all afternoon, cooking dinner together then watching the Simpsons. Sundays are good plus Becki and possibly Stephanie are going to hopefully come down to Reloaded at the end of term which should be jokes.

I really really hate crying in public, it makes me feel like a fool and look like a My Chem fan. Even more than crying in public I really really hate crying in the union, I feel like some stupid slapper who has just found out the guy she likes has a girlfriend. However when some total CUNT who has spent 10 minutes elbowing me at the bar then decides to spit on me because I apparently elbowed him when I had a coughing fit there really is nothing else I can do.
I have totally lost my faith in people, everyone I have met of late has been an inconsiderate moron. It's exactly 2 weeks till I go home for Easter to the three people in my life that I trust and love 100% I just wish it were sooner to be honest. I really hate how bitter and negative I have become in the last year as I didn't used to be this much of a miserable cow but I'm finding it increasingly difficult to find any positive life.
However i did cut my hair last night, the fringe has returned and doesn't look too bad.

I actually love Peep Show
'It's alright, it's just like porn except I can't see anything, I don't have a hard on and I want to cry.'
'4 naan Jeremy! 4! that's insane.'
'So now we're working it's not ok for me to smoke crack?'
'I've basically been very very foolish and spent all of our advance on drugs and shoes'
'God you're great, sometimes I'd like to die and climb inside you'

That's pretty much what my day has amounted to, oh and eating massive amounts of Skinny Cow ice cream and swiss chocolate, I really wish I'd been able to settle down and write an essay been I've been half asleep all day and then got IBS pains at about half five so decided to just go to bed and be have done with it.
I also managed to purchase my fifth pair of irregular choice shoes for just £31 from ebay. They may be almost exactly the same as a pair I already have but are in nicer colours and my old pair are almost dead. I should get them by the end of the week hurrah! I really should have saved my money so I could get pierced at Easter or bought Daniel a present as I haven't got him one in ages.

Currently I am in love with the Thin White Duke remix of What Else Is There by Royksopp, the original is great but I am drawn to this version for some reason, I think it might be the keyboard bit that reminds me of Daft Punk.
Today I was meant to write an essay about the ambiguety of the character of Penelope in The Odyssey but after my mum and brother came over with the stuff I left at home on tuesday (including my headphones! I can now go to the gym as i will be able to plug myself into my Zen) I just haven't had the motivation to either read anything that isn't Victoria Beckham's styel secrets in Glamour or write anything apart from an order for a FIT charm bracelet ( this site has some lush items, I'm saving up for the cherry earings after blowing almost £10 on my custom bracelet http://www.myspace.com/shootingstarjewellery ) instead I have spent the morning watching T4 (Sugarbabes were on Popworld and 3 episodes of Friends eeek!) and eating Galaxy chocolate.
This afternoon I might try to make some more headway with Margrave of the Marshes now I have it back then I'm meant to be going to the cinema tonight but there is so little inspiring on at the moment, I wishing time would hurry and so that V for Vendetta would be out already.
In other thrilling news I have decided after lots and lots of thought and agonising that I'm going to drop out of the media elections so will no longer be in the running for Assisstant Manager at Insanity, I really don't want to drop out as I really want to do this and without being arrogant think I would make a good Assistant Manager plus I don't think any of the other candidate are any good at all. Unfortunatly with my workload as it is at the moment I really don't have time to whore myself out to the student population and I'm worried my degree will suffer next year if I get it, plus I don't really have the support to do it at the moment and something happened last week that made me realise I don't want to be part of something that is so bitchy, and makes people into sneaky backstabbers. The goal now it apply for Head of Programming, I have some ideas that I think are pretty good so fngers crossed etc.
Oh and I have work over Easter and my dad gave me £300 last week so money is no longer the worry it was

Nightmare of You on Monday night was fab, I despise the garage as the acoustics are horrendous but the band were on top form, I really hope they add a London date ot the next tour. I managed to book myself Thursday tickets on tuesday morning by setting an alarm for 8:50 so that I'd be up for when they went on sale at 9:00 (sad much?).
I'm losing the only good thing I have in my life and it's pretty much all my fault, I wish I could let go of all the negativity that's holding me down but I just don't know how. I hate the fact that I can no longer have fun with him and I can't find the good in my life only the bad. I'm home for a month in 3 weeks time and then I only have 2 exams so can head home at the start of may hopefully.

I need someone to come with me to see Pretty Girls Make Graves at Easter, Dan has no money and doesn't want to go so I'll either have to go on my own (looking like a retard) or not go, neither of which is an attractive proposition.
In other news I now have somewhere to live next year, its about a 10 minute walk from campus which to be honest is a good thing as despite being a member of the gym I never go and so could do with the exercise. I had the house all to myself this weekend which was great, I got to loaf about in my jammies all day and not have other people's crap all over the kitchen and bathroom :)
Tomorrow I'm going to see Death Cab For Cutie, I'm not quite sure why as I think their music is 'alright'however there is a massive group of people going including Zoe's flatmate and his friends, people Dan used to work with and some random girl he met recently, people from home and me (obviously) so it should be fun in that regard.
Last week I falied my driving test for the 4th time, this irritated me greatly, mainly as I got 2 minors and then in literally the last minute of the test I fucked up the right turn onto the road that the test centre is on so got a major, I knew as soon as I'd done it that I'd messed up and the woman actually told me that for the rest of the test my driving had been 'beautiful' I have another one booked for the end of March so I really should pass by then as I know I can do it, It's just rather embarrassing having failed 4 times. At least it means I can still go home once week for my lessons and get my washing done and shopping paid for so I suppose there are still upsides.
I'm going to see Nightmare of You on Monday next week, I'm actually really looking forward to this, which is nice as a lot of the shows I've been to recently I'm been a bit blase about but this one should be really fun, despite the fact that I'm not actually getting there till about 9 so will literally only see Nightmare of You.

Pretty nice week spent mainly meeting oddballs and being shown crap houses. However on Wednesday I did meet three very nice freshers who have a place in the green who seemed lovely, I'm just waiting for them to get back to me about seeing the place. Yesterday me and Daniel had a fuking excellent, expensive day in Reading although he failed to find jeans and I failed to find shoes I still managed to blow £125 by buying us lunch at Chillis and spending almost £30 in Fopp, still I managed to get Margrave of the Marshes, Ghostbusters box set and the Virgin suicides by Jeffrey Eugenides for under £30. Plus I found a buff green and purple top in Primark.score. I think tomorrow I'm having to head into Staines to return the £35 worth of undies I bought that I really can't afford.
Also tomorrow I get to see my Stephanie and Becki which will either be proper jokes or painfull awkwardness i'm not sure which. However seeing them will be lush and I might try to convince them to stick around on Sunday to come and guest on my show. I think we're going to the union in the evening as it's only £2 to get in, I feel like I ought ton contribute to RAG week but to be honest the other events have been shit, why would I want to fork out £4.50 to see the scum of the earth (ie rugby boys) get naked in public when I could do that for free any wednesday night of term? I really don't understand the mentality of 'I play rugby therefore must get naked all the time cos I'm cool like that'. meh. I really need to book myself tickets to see Fall Of Troy, and possibly Rueben however I fear I would have NO-ONE to go with and going on my own always makes me feel a little wank, but on the other hand it means I can meet randoms hmmm it all depends on if my credit card can handle it.


it is true your honour, this man has no dick

Societies Ball on Saturday night was super fun, I didn't win the award I was up for which was a shame but didn't really bother me (apart from Suzy telling me I hadn't won it pretty much the moment I got there by telling me I wasn't up for an award, shows how good she is at her job, my name was in the sodding programme). I was sat mainly with Melissa's training types who I don't know all that well but all seem lovely mainly as they're not fussed about looking 'cool' or anything they were just there to have fun. Tried to take full advantage of the 4 bottles of 'complimentary' wine per table of 12 but was forced onto expensive archers and lemonade.
The awards really went to people who desrved them as did the crests (although I was hoping the Politics show would get best specialist), plus I got to wear my fit new mint green and black lace prom style dress and my sparkly shoes so it was obviouslt a good night. Got a beautiful Insanity proffesional photo for £8 which is a lot but nearly everyone looks pretty fab in it and it's full of a lot of my fave people there. Had a lovely chat to Dave from the music team who I must say is a proper sweetie, even came over to tell me he was leaving towards the end of the night, which was really sweet.

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I don't know LJ picture codes so just go to that link. I suck haha

So far today has been one of those days where everything is so good and is full of unexpected surprises, knowing me the rest of the day will see my death or something equally tragic but at the moment I am just happy. I managed to get up at 8.15 so actually got myself down to the gym for the first time this term and really pushed myself for about 1 1/2 hours which always makes me feel good. When I'd showered I was checking my email and found out I'm up for 'best off air contribution' at the societies ball, I didn't nominate myslef so it means that someone (probably chris and suzy) else did and I'm through to the nominations, I'm not expecting to get it but it made me feel so good just that little bit of appreciation.
Then I phoned my mum up to check what date I'm going to see Al Murray live with her, my dad and my brother and it turns out that it's on the 24th of May so I can go see City and Colour the day before my birthday on the 25th. So my birthday this year is going to be fucking amazing, with C&C the night before and then XMen III out the next day.
Right now the only thing that could improve my day is Maria telling me there is space for me at hers next year but I think that's asking a bit too much.
Frances is uber happy today

Thrice last night were just buff, I remembered how much I really love that band, they sounded sooo good last night, though some of the older tracks still sound a little messy, they played 'To Awake And Avenge The Dead' and 'The Artist In The Ambulance' which just sounded amazing and they closed on 'Red Sky' which was just beautiful. They were good enough for me to fork out for a nice new brown T shirt seeing as I can't actually breathe in my old one. Circa Surviva were pretty good too, missed a fair bit of their set queing but what I did see sounded very impressive if not a little wierdy. Coheed were good too, unfortunatly my back had totally gone by that point and me and Daniel were just surrounded by wankers, I know you don't stand still at gigs but when we were stood near the back where most people were just standing doing the odd wiggle or air punch and some twat with no neck in a pantera wife beater starts punching the air in front of your face every second and leaning across you in gets ridiculous. We moved twice but ended up near such pricks each time, some guy who was practically seven foot stood right in front of me so my face was smooshed into his back which was so much fun [/rant]
Overall the gig was pretty fab as I do love Thrice and Coheed were rather special, only bitch was our train back to Egham had actually vanished, so we had to get a train to the arse end of the world (ie Hounslow) then a bus to Egham so got back an hour later than planned.

Friday night was fun too, went out with Daniel to meet up with Lydia and some of her mates, it was the first time I'd actually met Lydia properly and she seems really nice, reminds me ever so slightly of Clem from VIth form, before she went psyco, but that might just be the Islington accent. She was battered when we got the Medicine so I did my best to catch up. It was cool to actually meet her properly and now I know more than Daniel at his place I might actually visit more often haha.

Today I have to make it to the Insanity music meeting while simultaniously helping Melissa set up for the Masterclass eeek, I do get to meet Marsha from Xfm later though which is something to look forward to.

I have a new lover; sweetcorn, spinach and cheese crusts, just beautiful and super healthy yum.
In other news I have cheques amounting to £143 in my wallet which makes me overjoyed as I am now no longer poverty stricken hurrah.
Plans for the week involve writing an essay for tomorrow, looking round Maria's place, and going to see Coheed and Cambria Vs Thrice on Saturday evening whihch I can not wait for as it's been far far too long since I saw either band. Thrice were one of the first hardocore/post hardcore/emo/whatever bands I got into so they always have a special place in my heart plus Coheed and Cambria just blow me away every time I see them live.
I'm thinking of going on the GI Diet, I borrowed my mum's book about it and it's really interesting and makes a lot of sense plus I'd get to lose about 2 stone.
Oh and is anyone else underwhelmed by the Arctic Monkey's album? It's a good CD but it's a bit like Casually Dressed.. all over again (the knowing pretty much all the songs already that is not the actual music) which is hardly the bands fault but it does mean the CD is slightly marred in my mind. I think the fact that NME made the ridiculous decision to name it 5th greatest British album EVER made me think it would be a bit more impressive than it is, however I really should learn to not listen to NME as it is just a sensationalist tabloid.

So my weekend has been rather lush, which is nice as I was kinda dreading it. 80s night was much fun despite having to leave early as I was so knackered I could barely stand by 1. Managed to stick it out for most of Ed's set which was fun as I do love 80s pop far tooo much. Trecked into London to have lunch at Belgo with Emma on Saturday, it was lovely to see her and eat food which wasn't tdubs grease. Finally found the most beautiful green and black dress for Societies Ball in Urban Outfitters along with some fit shorts, I was sorely tempted by some pumps in Topshop but my total lack of cash meant I couldn't even afford some new tights. Bargin of the day had to be getting Arctic Monkeys, Girls Aloud and Sugarbabes newest CDs for a grand total of £20 and Bill and Ted DVD for £4.99, I love MVC closing down sales and Daniel's managers discount (despite the fact that he's not a manager ha). Went to see Just Friends in the evening which was the definition of crap, I really wanted to see Memoires of a Geisha but got there too late oh well there is always next week.

Had a nice day today, went along to the music meeting after my show and messed about with the website and attempted to set up a myspace for the station but it fucked up for some reason. Attempted to make apple turnovers with Daniel but he insisted on using shortcrust pastry so they tasted rank. Proceeded to watch Nip/Tuck which ended very oddly.

Time to get some sleep I think as I have an essay to research and write by thursday to start tomorrow, fun fun

Got in from Joel's about 2 hours ago but have spent to intermdeiate time having a massive chat and gossip with Melissa that was much fun. Joel's was quite good despite the fact that I knew no one apart from Insanity folk, had a natter with Ed and met the famouse Matt Jagger, hung out with Suzy for a bit till some of her mates turned up then spent most of the evening with Mel as Tristan was, luckily for me, so hammered when we got there that he left half an hour later and proceeded to fall in a bush on his way home according to the move by move reports he sent Mel, so I was able to gossip away regarding Insanity with her, most of the conversations did seem to consist of
'Don't leave my station in the hands of.......(a certain person who will ruin the station if they get manager)' etc

I really do love Mel to bits, she is so much fun to hang out with and is someone who I hope I'll be able to stay in touch with after uni. We managed to talk for almost 2 hours when we got back to mine and indulged in massive amounts of tea, which despite my initial distaste for I am gorwing to love especially lemon tea yuum